Definitely been a while since I’ve been on! Well, here’s an update, I’ve wasted about a year trying to change something I have no control over, I’ve met new people, re-connected with old friends, and now I’m about to end my senior year of high school. Welcome to my world!
Friday is New Years, and I need to make some changes in my life…
I don’t need to try and make myself happy anymore. I’ve found the guy who does it for me. But this is only the beginning. I need to learn that even thought I may be older, I don’t need to just run away from this place.
I also wanna make some changes with my family. I wanna be closer to my mom. I feel like me and her are strangers. Like we aren’t “us” anymore, and I miss “us”. She may not know it anymore, but I will ALWAYS look up to her. She will always be one of the most important people in my life. I don’t know what I would ever do without her in my life.
“Oh, how I wish I could go back to the night we laid on the beach with me in your arms and fall asleep again.”
Woke up this morning with snow on the ground. I thought today was going to be perfect, but I was wrong.
I woke up, unwrapped presents, and spent time with my family. Later on, I came across a post someone had put on facebook, someone I had feelings for. I forgot what it felt like to smile just because. He had this way about saying just the right thing to me no matter how I felt, and no matter if we were even speaking. He always knew what to say…
I got a text saying “Merry Christmas.” It was from him. I was kinda shocked to see it on my phone, but I gave a reply, and left it at that. As the day has gone on, we’ve talked. Talked about small things. Talked about why things happened the way they did. And talked about how we need to figure things out.
Ahh, snow, how I love you. You make life so much simpler. Like nothing bad can happen. Like everything is at peace.♥.
